Couldn't you just cry?
Or scream.
The whole world can shift so suddenly.
One moment you're doing your last-minute primping at the mirror, heading out
to meet a friend for breakfast. A couple of videos to return on the way.
Grass-trimmer line to buy if the hardware store is open.
And then there's a tense sentence on the radio.
You rush to the television, and a picture flickers on that leaves you staring
in disbelief. The ground beneath you bucks and sways like a funhouse floor.
I backed over to a chair, trying to find some stable spot. My mind raced,
likewise looking for some level place to land.
Unexpectedly, the words of a favorite old hymn came to mind: This world is
not my home. I'm just a'passing through ...
It's a twangy old song of solace, reminding us that life here is fleeting
and hard. Our hope is in our eternal home – somewhere beyond the blue.
Yet, almost as soon as those words brought a measure of comfort, another
thought came close behind: The people at the controls of those airplanes almost
certainly had visions of eternal glory on their minds, too.
It truly is a bitter day when even the words of a favorite hymn come back
with sinister shading.
I wish I had some elixir of soothing words for you today. Never have I felt
so attuned to Lincoln's confession on the poor power of words to add or detract
from some moments in history.
We have witnessed another of those moments. Perhaps our only pale solace is
simply in sharing each other's company.
I was to have met my friend Bob Compton, our retired books editor, for
breakfast. We spoke on the phone and agreed that our appetites were gone. Yet
half of me wanted to meet anyway, just to bear the tragedy in Bob's steady
presence.
Instead, I sat alone at home and watched the shattering events unfold. My
urge was to drive the mile to my wife's seventh-grade class and put my arms
around those young people. And have my wife put her arms around me.
So many jumbled thoughts rolled through my head:
Usually I have little patience for the empty chatter of TV announcers when
they have run out of new information and must simply fill time.
But Tuesday morning, I would have preferred such patter to the unbelievable
cascade of new horrors falling before us.
We're so accustomed to seeing special effects in movies that the scenes of
disaster all seemed strangely familiar. It took effort for me to persuade my
mind that I was truly seeing what I was seeing.
And I felt ashamed that we have used violence so blithely for entertainment.
Will this generation ever see Hollywood's air crashes, towering infernos and
terrorist plots as quite the same mindless fun?
As I watched in numb, distant horror, I thought of the intense pain that must
be searing those with loved ones at the centers of disaster.
And it was sickening to realize that some few somewhere must have been
watching it all with glee.
We're a nation at peace! How could others' causes engulf us so? Because the
old cliché has never been so bitterly true: "It's a small world."
Ultimately, the only place my mind could settle for long was a favorite
snippet of scripture from Micah. Its simplicity always appeals, but especially
in times of turmoil.
The passage asks the essential question: "What does the Lord require of us?"
And it answers with elegant economy: "To act justly, to love mercy and to
walk humbly with your God."
Yesterday we sure walked humbly, numbly with our God.
Today we can cry. Or scream. Or we can move forward with mercy and justice –
our best hope for never seeing another such day.